Firstly ‘Love the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength.(Deuteronomy 6:5) but also in Luke 10:27 we are called to You must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, all your strength, and all your mind.’ And, ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’”

This lead to me think what does love look like in different situations? What does love like like when the children are screaming, you are exhausted and feel drained in everyway but we need to give that little bit more. What does love look like when one of your closest friends never calls to see how you are? What does love look like when your boss constantly says you are wrong even when you know you are right? What does love look like when you are yelled at with hand gestures whilst drivng? what does love look like when someone says something to you that hurts deeply, one of those things people say to you that can stick with you forever.

Also in terms of loving God with all your heart…it means for me giving my all and my best at everything.

At times it can be hard, when you are in situations I mentioned above or when something traumatic happens in your life, or when your life doesnt turn out how you would have wanted. For me I thought my life would be very different at the age of approaching 32 to how it actually is. For a time I began to think maybe God was punishing me for the things I have done wrong in the past and thats why I am still single but after praying about it I learnt to trust God with his plan for my life and in the promises he has made and that he knows whats best for me. It has been such a journey of discovery about myself and learning to respect myself but also healing so these years as single have been vital for me I know that.

I dont have an answer to all these questions but it leads me to think more about Gods love for me and the amazing sacrifice he made for ME. I am not perfect far from it and inside of me there is a whole heap of stuff which causes me to act the way I do and think the way I do and to question ones self as to why peole react the way they do can give insight, well for me it does. We all operate and function according to our past expierences and what has happened or not happened to us through our life. Things that should have happened/ shouldnt have happened or things we would have liked to have happened/ not to have happened. Anyway going back to Jesus. A song line that I first heard last weekend had awesome lyrics that really touched me.

I am so unworthy but you still love me …(Phil Wickham: Cannons)

It just humbles me for the daily mistakes I make that God still loves me just as I am. This is a real challenge for me at the moment to accept that, to accept who I am, to be comfortable to be who I am in front of people in the hope that then God can continue to change me and mould me. It is a journey but an awesome one. I am so thankful for the people God has placed in my life to support me along the way….those people know who they are I hope. Even when friends have moved on to new things or new stages in life, I have really seen Gods faithfulness in providing new friends, and each friendship is so exciting in its own way.

Another song I came across this week was ‘I want to know what love is’ by Foreigner.

I gotta take a little time

A little time to think things over

I better read between the lines

In case I need it when I’m older

Now this mountain I must climb

Feels like a world upon my shoulders

And through the clouds I see love shine

It keeps me warm as life grows colder

In my life there’s been heartache and pain

I don’t know if I can face it again

Can’t stop now, I’ve traveled so far

To change this lonely life

I wanna know what love is

I want you to show me

I wanna feel what love is

I know you can show me

I’m gonna take a little time

A little time to look around me, I’ve got nowhere left to hide

It looks like love has finally found me

Such great lyrics which captures alot. It leads me back to what does love look like? I still havent answered the question fully, but I do feel for so many people LOVE is what they are looking for in many situations. As we base ourselves and learn more and operate from Gods love for us, what amazing love I can share with others, as I continue to learn what love is and how I can show that to others. What an honour it is for me to be part of Gods plan and work for him to the best of my ability whilst I am on this earth.